Monday, April 30, 2012

Sickly Weekend

We both spent the weekend not feeling very well. Me especially. Allergies are not cool.

Avery was feeling great, though!


She always has the craziest hair when she has just woken up!



She loves to be thrown around, too. Such a little daredevil!


She has this little book that has become her favorite. It's an alphabet book and she will bring it to us, and there is a picture for every letter. It still amazes me when I point to pictures and she can tell us what it is (Mermaid? Octopus? That's nuts.). Well, Jason points to the A (which is apple) and says, "What does the "A" stand for?" And she promptly replied, "Abey." (Avery). I know we've said that and so has her grandparents, but we still looked at each other, surprised, because neither of us had said that in a couple of days, so for her to remember that is pretty impressive, I think!



I am sure everyone thinks their child is a genius. I don't know about that. But I do know that Avery picks up on things very quickly and remembers it. It's just crazy!


Have a great Monday everyone!



Friday, April 27, 2012

Avery Can

So, I found myself today, in a weak moment. The end of the day wasn't a great one and I found myself doubting myself and just basically, feeling sorry for myself. I prayed to God and cried.

God quickly reminds me, yet again, that whatever I am upset about, whatever I am feeling sorry about, it can all be changed. It's all in my control. At the very least, how I respond to it.

I read a story on Yahoo about a little girl, named Avery, who is 5 months old. She's been diagnosed with SMA, Spinal Muscular Atrophy. An incurable and rare disease that will lead to her death. They have given her 18 months to live.


Her parents are obviously very concerned with this disease, as it's the #1 killer of infants yet very few people have heard of it. It's a disease that could be tested for in the womb, yet very few doctors offer the test.

They are writing the blog through Avery's perspective, as though they are crossing items off her "bucket list."

See? How many 5 month olds do you know that get to eat a cupcake?


She will eventually lose mobility in her arms and legs. So they make sure they can do as much for her now as they can!

Here she is playing with Play-Dough...


But they make sure to bring awareness to this disease for all moms, so they start asking for this testing when they are pregnant.


Will you share this link with people you know?

I just couldn't imagine. There are so many people out there with so many other things that are so much more important than my dumb problems. I think it's time to snap out of it.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Pebbles

Just some pictures - after I put her bow in her hair, I thought she kind of looked like Pebbles. Enjoy!














Monday, April 23, 2012

Colbi and The ABCs

Hey, Blogger. I don't like having to learn new ways of doing my Facebook all the time, and I don't like having to do it with you, either. Not a fan of you changing everything up on me.

Anyway, yesterday turned out to be a very busy but good day. I have decided I don't like taking pictures anymore because my camera stinks, as does my camera phone, and every picture I take is dull looking and blurry. So this is the only picture I got yesterday.

Guess what we did? Shopped for Colbi! I always forget how much stuff there is to register for with a new baby. Wow!


Avery actually got a new toy herself. That little pink cow she is holding sings the ABCs. She LLLOOOOVVVEEESSSS it. She made me press the button about 100 times last night. She can actually sing the ABCs, all the way to about H, but last night should would sing a random "W" or other letter. Then she would sing the end, "Now I know my ABCs..." I was already emotional when I got home because I just love hearing her try new things, so watching Marley and Me probably wasn't the best idea. Blubbering.

Anyway, have a great Monday, everyone!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Weekend Fun

Ugh. I just chugged my first liter of water for the day. I am just not in the mood to drink water today. Although, I am also not in the mood to drink anything else. Guess I am just all waterred out.

Diet is still going strong, hanging in there! We've been really busy this week, all the way around, so exercising just hasn't really happened yet. But I did start taking my super B-complex vitamins, which is the basis for most diet supplements out there, so we will see how that works!

I started house hunting again this week. Not that we are ready to buy just yet, but man, does it make me excited. It has also sparked a fire inside of me to get back on the decorating bandwagon. Sometimes, I just have an aversion to it because the thought of painting and shopping around at garage sales, Craigslist and thrift stores just doesn't appeal to me after I've done it for a while. I have alot of ideas for our house and the thought process with this is that the more stuff we buy while we live here, the less we have to buy all at once when we move to a new house. For example, we are in desperate need of new bedroom furniture. Our bed is quite literally falling apart and the mattress is OOOLLLLDDD and on it's last leg. The dresser drawers have started to squeek something awful when opening them up. The thought has always been to fix them up, but now I am thinking, since Jordan's furniture is cheap and falling apart as well, that maybe it would be a good to redo our furniture for his room and get us some new furniture.

The kid also has a futon that is like, the worst thing I've ever slept on in my life. Maybe it's cause I don't weigh as much as a ten year old, but there is this bar that goes down your back and it's horrible. He needs a bed, a real bed.

We are also going to have to get either Sophia or Avery a new bedroom set when we move. Not sure who will get the stuff they have in their now, but it's good furniture that was a hand me down. And we will also need a toddler bed sometime in the near future. Can't believe I am even thinking about that now! And on that same note, I would like to get Sophia a day bed with a trundle or a bunk bed so we have an extra place for people to sleep. With Jason's family, when everyone comes to stay, we need some more beds. Plus, extra beds are just nice to have.

Of course, ALL of this is wish list stuff. We have more things to worry about at the present time and these are all things that can wait, with the exception of at LEAST a new mattress for us. I am telling you - that thing makes so much noise and sinks in the middle so much...

Ok. So it's not this bad. Yet. But I do sometimes think we might end up feeling like we are the inside of a hot dog bun.

We mowed the lawn yesterday, which kickstarted my allergies, which I highly feel has caused a sinus infection, so I am not feeling tip top. But I do get to go to a baby shower today and then go help Brooke register for Colbi! So, I have a feeling either my baby fever I am currently going through will either get better or worse after today's festivities.

Best part about yardwork:

He mowed almost the entire yard, all by himself. Pretty impressive!!!

Here is just a little video of how we spent our morning. Jason tried to get Avery dancing as we played Rock Band. All we ever play is Eye of the Tiger cause it's easy for the kids to sing. I have to say, it's the most boring song to play. But, the kids sure like it!
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Have a great Sunday Afternoon!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

My "No Diet Talk" Post

I said I would put some pictures up today....

Before I do that, can I just say I am a little obsessed with this song lately...

"Gotye" Somebody that I used to know


Avery is just getting so, OLD. It's really the most amazing thing, watching your baby, who couldn't even lift their head, or pick up toys, or sit up by themself become this person who can reach for things and talk back to you! Now, when I ask her questions, she can actually answer me and she knows what I am saying. It's so cool!


Our mornings are like clockwork, every single day. We wake up, Avery comes in bed with me and has her milk while I lay with her and we watch "Play With Me Sesame" and "The Wiggles." I get her dressed, do her hair, she runs around after I've fixed her up and tells her dad "Ook!" (Look) So he can look at her. He tells her how pretty she is, then he brushes her teeth and then they go bye bye.


(Wow, it's amazing how much light affects pictures, isn't it?)

Her entire life is one big routine, which I think has helped her in more ways that I even know. At night, every night, we come home, play a little, eat dinner, play some more, take a bath, and go night night by 7:30. Every, single, day. During day care, her day is filled with the same faces, the same schedules, the same nap time. It sounds monotonous to say it like that, but I think she is thriving within this scheduled environment.


She is just talking UP A STORM lately. I mean, everything you say, she repeats. Like I said, it's amazing.

This is what I see, every morning. My two sweetie pies leaving for the day.

Bye-Bye!


But before she goes on her car ride, she has to have a book. So we have books in both our cars and she will read them and look out the window all the way to where we are going.


Ah, Go-go and Melmo are going to teach her about colors today! Have a great Thursday, everyone!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Why Atkins Makes You Crazy

So, for those of you who are thinking about Atkins or something similiar, including drastically cutting your carb/sugar intake, just know that it's not always easy and it doesn't always feel good.

Like I said yesterday, Monday and Tuesday were pretty awful days. I was incredibly cranky, I felt like I couldn't concentrate on anything and yesterday, my stomach started to feel, funny. I started reading about what it does to your body to cut out carbs and everything I listed are the by-products of this diet. I wasn't sleeping very well at night, either. Now, it DOES make me feel much better, in the fact that I losing weight and I am not bloated all the time and my mid-section is dwindling, so I will not be quitting this new way of eating anytime soon. But yesterday afternoon, I made a corporate decision to binge on some carbs and sugar.

Jason and I went to eat some enchiladas and I had some chips and salsa. When I got home, I ate two mini-bags of M&M's and went to sleep at 7:45. I slept all night and woke up this morning feeling great. Isn't that weird? But I still got up and had my normal breakfast of a boiled egg and egg whites, yogurt and cinnamon almonds. This just makes me realize that I can't cut everything out altogether and that I just can't afford spending my days the way I felt the last two days. It's just not worth it.

I wish I had some pictures to post here, but unfortunately, I do not. I will take some tonight, though!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Diet

Yesterday and today weren't good days. I did really well on the diet, but man, am I cranky. I did, however, lose three more pounds, which makes a grand total of 8.

I leave you with some funny pics. Sorry, I know it's boring. But my diet is my life right now.

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Monday, April 16, 2012

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Manic Monday

I feel like this morning has been a little nuts. I didn't sleep all that great last night...lots of things running through my mind. Don't you hate that? Nothing in particular, just stuff. Then, my "alarm clock," AKA, Avery who normally wakes up at 5:30 on the dot, has slept in the past 3 mornings. I actually had to wake her up this morning, which never happens!!!

So, just a little weight loss update. I've been pleasantly surprised with my discipline this week. I've managed to cut out sodas completely with overwhelming success. I've been doing really well at drinking water. I've also done very well at cutting out the carbs. I've not completely cut them out, but the carbs I do intake have been byproducts of healthy things, like milk, although that, too, has significantly decreased. I've had no sweets, no sandwiches, no chips, which has actually not been that hard. I've had lots and lots of salads, boiled eggs, cinnamon almonds, apples, chicken and turkey, yogurt, hummus, and water, water, water.

Although I haven't weighed myself in a couple days, I really don't think I've lost any more pounds. But, I have noticed a big change in how I fit into clothes. My legs are rubbing together as much. My tummy feels (and looks flatter.) I have more confidence when I am walking lately, so that is a great accomplishment for me. Along with all of this, I've managed to put on makeup almost every single day and seem to care a little bit more about how I am presenting myself to the world. Now, onto week 2.

I got P90X last year sometime and was really stoked about doing it. Guess what. I HATE P90X. It's hard and it's boring and it's annoying (that guy's voice and sayings are just like, nails on a chalkboard). But, it works. My diet alone isn't going to get be where I want to be quickly. If I really want to start seeing some results, I am going to have to start exercising, for real. As much as I don't want to, P90X is going to be what will get me there. But I am very motivated to do this and I KNOW this won't be forever. This will be temporary for me. But I need to start burning some real calories. And doing exercises that will get rid of this fat. So, I will start tonight. I know after I do it, I will feel better.

This weekend was fun filled. I only got a few pictures on my phone, so here is what I will leave you with. We spent all day Saturday with my parents. Avery was her normal, amusing, funny, wonderful self. AND we saw X-Men: First Class, which was awesome. Avery also wore the cutest outfit on Sunday to church. She got a beautiful smocked dress for a baby shower and she is just now big enough to fit into it! Have a great Monday, everybody!


She was tired on her way home from church.




Friday, April 13, 2012

SUYL Moms of Girls

I decided to link up with Kelly's Korner again about being a mom with all girls. Since my only biological child is a girl, I figured I would link up.


I have no idea what it's like to have blue around a nursery, or not have bows in a baby's hair. My life is filled with more zebra than I can count!


I don't know what it's like to have my little boy shoot pee-pee in my mouth when I am changing his diaper. Or to like trucks and trains better than dolls and "boobies" (Barbies, this word is my favorite).


I don't know what it's like not to have tons of skirts and pantyhose and pink, red and purple in the closet.


I don't know any other way to live, than to watch my 8-pound-nothing daughter melt the hearts of grown men.


I don't know any other way to live than to wish so many things for my little girl. I don't know what it means to want my son to grow up with a respect for women, because all I know is a want for my daughter to grow up respecting herself, knowing that beauty is on the inside, and to love God more than she loves any other man.


I wish every day that no matter how beautiful my daughter is, and will continue to be, that she remembers to be kind to everyone, all the time. To help her know that people remember your kindness more than they will ever remember your beauty.


I pray constantly and hope above all hopes that she makes mistakes (but not the same ones I did!).

I love being a mom to a little girl. It's heartbreaking, scary, difficult, and WONDERFUL all the time. It's a joy to have her and I couldn't imagine it any other way!

Friday Fun Day

I forgot to post this picture when the kids were here...


These dogs are ridiculous. So happy.

I don't really know what face the munchkin is making here....


Y'all, I think we are headed in to unchartered territory. She is getting more stubborn, cranky and whiney. I believe her two year molars are coming in, and the terrible twos are coming in with them.

Lately, she can just be so whiney! Oh my goodness. She has this sound she makes, that's like a cross between a cry and a whimper. The girl can say a million words but when she is upset, she just whines! She is still so funny though. She really does do some funny stuff. She's recently learned to make people copy her and she does some funny stuff.


Being the parent of a toddler is just fun. They do some random, entertaining, endearing, frustrating things. But I love this stage she's in. She can do so much, like talk and follow directions. She can hold things and walk where you want her to. It's just so much fun! 

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Weight Loss Update

So, I know I've posted many times about my issues with my weight. Well, this time I feel a renewed vigor to lose weight and keep it off. I don't know why I feel different this time, maybe I am just tired of looking at pictures and hating how I look, or avoiding taking pictures of me altogher. Maybe I am tired of feeling like a person that I am not on the inside. I don't know.

I've put off dieting and exercising for many reasons. I told myself I wanted to be prepared and have a plan, but in waiting for the right "plan" I've lost time I would have had to lose at least a few pounds. I think I am finding the "balance" in the weight loss this time around.

I told myself I wanted to do Atkins, but knowing me, I can't do it altogether, cold turkey. I just have too many bad habits when it comes to carbs and honestly, my pantry is not set up for Atkins. I am not going to go spend $200 to fill it up with carb-free foods, to just lose my focus for it and waste money. But I definitely can alter some habits little by little that are causing me to remain the weight I am now.

So, I've decided to start off slow. I've also decided, now that I am loosening our purse strings a little, that this is going to have been the only time in my life I've had this much weight to lose. If I am putting that much effort, I need some rewards to keep me motivated. When I weighed myself Monday, I was 184. I told myself when I get down to 170, I will get a tanning membership, which is something I've wanted back for about two years. At 160, it will be another reward. And 150, my goal weight, it will be a really great reward. I think rewards are what is keeping me going because I really, REALLY want sunless tanning back in my life again. I am blinding people!!!

I can tell you that these pictures had a lot to do with my decision to just start what I could about my diet and weight loss right now.

(Granted the first picture I was pregnant, but still...)




I am not going so far as to say I am ugly, because I am not. Keeping my self-confidence during these last 17 months has been one of the reasons I have stayed this weight for so long. I am not afraid to be in public, I don't think I am unattractive. My husband still thinks I am gorgeous. So looking at me in these shots doesn't make me cringe. It's just, the person I see in these pictures just isn't me. The person I still see, and want to be when I look in the mirror, is this person....


And this person...


And this person....


I loved that I could go shopping and find really cute things to wear that fit me and look good. I loved that I could wear a bathing suit and my legs were toned and my tummy wasn't running over. I loved that my face looked thin and I didn't have a double chin when I looked down. I loved that my "assets" were smaller and less cumbersome.

So, with that being said, I have a renewed vigor for getting this done this time. There just aren't any more excuses for not. I feel as though my adjusting some things in my daily habits, the first 15 pounds will be easier to lose than the last 20, but we can cross that bridge when we get to it. I think that will take a more strict exercise regiman and diet, but like I said, one thing at a time.

1. I have removed ALL sodas, including diet ones, from my diet. I have begun drinking very large amounts of water daily and have also begun drinking hot tea (green, black, whichever is available). Just from this change, in the last three days, I've noticed my tummy has gone down considerably.

2. I have begun counting calories on MyFitnessPal.com and am limiting the number of carbs I eat daily. This one is hard because I am finding that the things I didn't think were really high in carbs are in fact, the highest. Milk, for example. I know that milk has it's own health benefits, but just eating peanut butter whole wheat toast and milk for breakfast destroys my calorie and sugar count for the day. So, I am having to find new things I can eat in place of the old.

3. I have also limited my sugar intake. I am not so concerned if my sugar comes from nutritionally healthy foods at this point, but I can't let it come from candy and treats. We currently have 4 gallons of Blue Bell Ice Cream that my in-laws so wonderfully got for us over the weekend. Honestly, I am not even tempted to have it but in the past, I would have thought, "I can't let this go to waste!"

4. I am trying to incorporate exercises, even if they are only 10 minutes long, into my week as often as I can. This one is proving to be the hardest, ONLY because of my schedule. But I've been good at doing it in the mornings.

I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 180, which means that in the last 3 days I've lost 4 pounds. I have a feeling every bit of that is water weight and I have a feeling that I was dehydrated, so this weight loss might be misleading. But it's given me a jolt to know that the things I am doing are working.

Think about me as you go through your day, would you? I need some support because this isn't going to always be this easy, especially when I have to get creative on foods I can eat! I will let everyone know progress as it comes!