Tuesday, October 27, 2009

5 Things I Look Forward To The Most About Being Married To Jason

Jason, I love you. I love every bit of you and one day I will devote a blog just to you in your wonderful goodness. But what do I look forward to the most about being married to you? ( Not being married. Being married TO YOU. )

1) You are my best bud and I look forward to sharing my life with you. You and I have so much fun together and I love just hanging out with you. I love that for the rest of my life I have my built in buddy that I get to do even the most mundane of chores with because we still have fun.

2) Seeing what our kid(s) will look like. I can't wait to see him or her and watch them grow up with you! You are such a great dad and I can't wait to have a child we made together and be apart of their lives together.

3) Having someone by my side every night when we go to bed and every morning when we wake up. That's so cool.

4) Spending holidays together. I have never experienced that before in any relationship and I am so happy that you are the one I get to experience that with.

5) Having someone accept me for exactly who I am and know exactly what I need in every situation. You are so good at that and I can't tell you how proud I am that I am with you, someone who is so supportive and wonderful to me.

These are only 5 of the MANY. But married Jenna Whitehead, this one's for you.

5 Things I Will NOT Miss About Being Single

Single Jenna, life wasn't always fun. These are the 5 things I won't miss:

1) "Why hasn't he called?" "Where is this relationship going?" "Reagen/Kate/Leslie/Brooke, why doesn't he love me" NO MORE OF THOSE CALLS!

2) Christmas, alone. Thanksgiving, alone. Family pictures, alone.

3) Loneliness in general.

4) Wondering where my life is going and questioning if someone will be able to accept me in all my wonderful flawed-ness.

5) Calls to my parents, "WHERE IS HE? I am sad, I am depressed, I live too far away" And so on and so on.

These 5 so outway the last 5.

5 Things I Will Miss About Being Single

Ever since I got engaged, I have been so excited but yesterday, I started having this feeling of it sinking in. I think the older you are when you get engaged, and the longer you go in your life as a single adult, it becomes strange that your life is now about two people instead of just one. It sounds weird, but I almost feel like I am in mourning for my single life. I got so comfortable doing things on my own that at times, I kind of miss it. As soon as I became comfortable with being single and who I was as an independant woman, I found Jason, which is how it should be. Single Jenna deserves a second of mourning, I think. I worked hard to be her and I am proud of who I finally became. I am sure that no one would ever write this on their blog a week after getting engaged, and to some it may seem like I am not happy with my life and the changes going on in it. But please don't think that. I am very happy. My life is just going into a new phase and I wanted to stop for a second and think about what I will miss and properly say goodbye. So, the top 5 things I will miss about being single are:

1) Doing whatever I want with my money. I could be completely selfish with anything I made. If I had $20 left before payday, I didn't have to explain to anyone why it's more important to spend that money on junk food and a movie or Jason's Deli. I just did and the only person that even had to know is myself! When I budget, I only had to think about my needs, not the needs of someone else. I didn't have to share my bad financial choices, nor does anyone else have to suffer from them.

2) Going to the grocery store and buying whatever I want. I didn't have to think of anyone else or plan ahead for meals. I just spent a very small amount of money on the things I liked. If I want to eat cereal every night for a week, sandwiches all weekend and ice cream for lunch, I could do it.

3) Having alone time any time I needed/wanted it. If I wanted to come home and spend the entire weekend in front of the TV, I could do it. If I wanted to go the movies by myself, I could do it and not feel guilty. Along with that, I never felt like during that time I had to clean, do laundry, shower (yuck) or anything else I didn't want to do. I just took time when I needed it without having to explain myself.

4) Keeping my apartment however I wanted. I am a messy person and sometimes I feel like my apartment being messy is just who I am. When you are alone, if the dishes aren't done, you are the only one who has to live with it. If the clothes aren't put away, who cares! You are the only one that sees it.

5) Going out with single girl friends and not knowing what the night will bring. Let's just leave it at that.

Don't worry...I look forward to my life with Jason. And being single wasn't always fun. But Single Jenna, this one was for you.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

It's really happening, oh my.

We started to look at venues today and it hit me that this is real and is actually happening. It's so strange when it happens to you. It's just something that I always thought was in the far distant future and it's been something I've thought about my whole life and now it is really happening. And it's so much more than I ever thought it would be!

I must say, there is alot about this wedding that I really haven't given a whole lot of thought to, and to be honest, I don't really care too much about. Whenever I have thought about my wedding (and those who know me can attest to this) I have cared about two things; who I am marrying and let's party! I always told myself that I was just going to elope and I think if Jason had it his way, he would say we should do that too. But now that it's here, I really want a day for us to celebrate our relationship. I still don't care a whole lot about the details, thankfully, I have a mother who is great at that and can help with some ideas. I just want to be married to Jason. I want to have a marriage with lots of happiness and I want everyone to know that it can happen, to have someone you truly love who truly loves you, no matter what. I want our day to be a day to celebrate love and happy endings. So, that's what we will do. No muss, no fuss. I don't want my engagement to be caught up in details that don't matter and weekends of running around making plans. I want simplicity, quick choices and then a time to actually enjoy being engaged because I will never be engaged again. I only have six months to call him my fiancee and I want to enjoy every minute of it!

Don't get me wrong. It won't be some crummy affair. But just know that on our wedding day, you won't be paying any attention to the center pieces or extravagance because that is simply not me or Jason. But I hope you will sense the love we have for each other and if you do, then our job will be done. Oh, and I want to do the wedding for less than $500. Do you think that's possible? Hmmm....

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Tae Kwon Do

Jordan started Tae Kwon Do this month! We are so excited that we get to watch him practice. He is so good at the movements and is very consise. Jason is just so proud when he watches him. Friday, they had "Parents Night Out" where you could take the kdis and drop them off for about 5 hours. Jordan watched a movie, played games, ate pizza, and came home just about as horse as possible. But he had a great time. Here are some pictures of him in action. Here are also some pictures of Sophia taking pics of herself while he was in class.

5 Things I Can't Live Without

I usually hate doing these things, but I thought, hey. Why not. So here goes, in no particular order:

1) God. Without faith in the Lord, I honestly do not know where I would be. To live in a world without God would be a world not worth it. How could you live everyday without the security of knowing that Jesus has your heart and future in His hands? Although I don't always walk the best walk, I always love God and remember Him.

2) Friends. The show, not the people in this scenario. I love love love my Friends. It's there always, whenever I am in the dumps, it's there when I need a laugh, it's there when I need some familiarity. I love this show. I could never go without having this. When I have had no cable, suffering through without entertainment, it was always there to save me and keep me laughing, no matter how bad I was feeling at the time.

3) Books. I could never live without books. I crave knowledge and willingly read as many books as I can. If I could go back in time and tell my younger self to love books, I would have graeduated validictorian of my class. I love history books, educational books, and opinion books. Just depends on my mood.

4) Dave Matthews Band. I sometimes take a vacation from you, but I always come crawling back. I would be sad to live in a world without you, Dave. Your music has spoken to me on a number of levels, from sadness to happiness to depression. Just when I think I have heard enough and moved on, I always realize how great you are, beg for forgiveness, and go see your concert.

5) Peter Panda ( my stuffed panda ). He has been hanging out in my closet for the last, oh, 10 years or so, but I couldn't imagine him not being around in some capacity. Peter was my lifelong friend, and besides my parents, has known me longer than anyone, including my sisters. He is had been told secrets, watched me grow up and sat so patiently as I disregarded him and threw him on the floor when I got old enough to not care anymore. Peter needs some repairs, he is dirtier than he used to be and needs some stuffing. But my child will get him someday and he will love them just as much as he has me.

My Friend Kate

Oh, Kate. Katers. You are one in a million. There is absolutely NO ONE in the world like you are. You are one of the most quick witted people I have met in my life, full of smart comments and lovely quotes said in all the right places. I can always trust you to come with something fast and funny to say. There isn't anyone I know who can quote things like you can. I try to keep up, but it's simply impossible. ( Robyn gives you a run for your money, though! ) Just when I master "Friends" you are on to "Flight of the Concords." Always one step ahead. I have never known anyone with worse luck, seriously, you take the cake on that! Please bubble wrap yourself from this point forward, check the weather before you step outside, and be very cautious because you NEVER know what's going to happen to you from day to day! And yet still, somehow, you always come out stronger and better for it. You are probably one of the most fun friends I have ever had. Back in our "younger" days, we were quite the duo, how we didn't get into more trouble, I will never know. People love you, and I loved hanging out with you. No matter where we went, we RULED the place. I miss those days sometimes, the days of invincibility where the world was our oyster. Those were good times and some of my favorite of my life. I can always count on you to be on my side, even if I am completely wrong, you will always stick up for me and make me feel better about whatever the problem is. If I had a dime for all of the times you listened to me and my problems, I would be a millionaire right now. You have always been such a good friend that way. I have just loved, loved, loved the opportunity to get to know you these last 7 years, it's been a true blessing and I look forward to many more years to come.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Shopping, Cheesecakes, and Rings, Oh My!

I think Jason and I have known for a while that we were "meant to be." We had talked about getting married several times before, but how it was going to happen was going to be a complete surprise. I had never really thought about how I was going to be proposed to, I just knew that I wanted my family to be there and I wanted it to happen in a public place. Well, as of Monday evening, we are officially engaged! Jason really loves me and paid attention to what I wanted. I got to share this wonderful moment with all of the people I love, it was certainly a memory I will keep forever.

I had decided to take the day off and meet my sisters, aunt and mom for a day of shopping. Since we were all going to be away from home, Jason decided he would ask my dad and Brooke’s husband to play golf that day. It was an absolutely gorgeous day! We decided to go eat dinner at The Cheesecake Factory in Frisco. To my surprise, when we walked in, there was my dad, brother in law, and boyfriend. Jason had said they were right around the area playing golf and so Dave suggested to Brooke that we all just meet up together and eat dinner. I didn’t think anything of it. The whole dinner everything seemed normal, until I saw my friend Kate walk in. I had no idea why she had just walked in, since I hadn’t talk to her, and it wasn’t a place she would have just to gone to eat in by herself. I kind of thought something seemed fishy. At that moment, everyone quietted down and Jason began to speak. Honestly, I was so excited I forgot a lot of what he said, until I heard, “Will you be my wife?” Of course, I said, “YES!” He slipped a ring on my finger, and with that, we were to be married!

The ring he bought was exactly something I would have picked. Once again, he listened. I have never wanted a large ring, I wanted a square cut with an antique-y look to it. That’s exactly what he put on my finger – just perfect.

I am so excited for the next phase – being engaged!


The Future Mrs. Jason Whitehead

My first gift with my future name!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

October Weekend Fun

We had a great weekend last weekend! It was all about the kids, fall, and Halloween traditions. I went to the store on Friday and got a bunch of Halloween decorations for the kids. I also got these cute little flashlights which let you put a Halloween design at the end of it and you can shine it on the wall. There was a witch, a ghost and a jock-o-lantern. We turned off all the lights and took turns telling ghost stories using the symbols! We then played trick or treat in the dark. We thought the kids might be scared, but they loved it! On Saturday, we got up and found a cute pumpkin patch in Double Oak that was free and oh so awesome! We took alot of pictures there! There was great food, bounce houses, hay rides, pony rides, and tons of pumpkins! We came back, decorated the house and then carved our pumpkins. Then, we finished off the night with pancakes and hot chocolate! The kids had blue mouths all day from the blue snow cones, if you are wondering. I think holidays are so much more fun with kids in the picture...you get to live through them, getting to redo the fun things that you can't do as a single adult! I am really looking forward to more fun holiday fun to come this year!