About a year and a half ago, I was single, I lived alone, no dog, no boyfriend, nothing. I remember being stressed out and worried alot. Thinking back on it now, I don't remember exactly what I was that stressed out about. I think probably everyone is always stressed out about money, but my stress about money was more like, will I be able to go out tonight? What can I sacrifice so I can go to that movie? Will I be able to buy something new today? Will I be able to pay for my tanning membership this month? Not that those worries were silly, those were just the worries I had when I had no responsibilities in my life. Those were the worries at that time I was concerned about. I have received a taste of worry this year with Jason, introducing the kids, wondering when he lost his job how we were going to pay for both apartments, how the kids will have health insurance, how will we buy groceries for the kids that aren't just a bunch of junk. I mean, I got a taste of what it is like for real worry. I say real because I was never worried about where I would live, what I would do if I didn't have a job, or any of that when I was single because I knew I would be ok. Sometimes, worry takes over and I just hope everything is going to be ok. I think that happens when you become a parent because you realize that you are responsible for another life in this world and it's hard. I have never been a money saver, but I have certainly learned to that. I have learned how to have a Plan B, like my dad always says. I have a Plan B all the time now. It's simply amazing how things start to change when kids are introduced, even when they aren't even yours.
I heard a great sermon this Sunday at church. The preacher was talking about "WHY?" He meant, "God, why do bad things happen to good people?" "Why is there suffering?" "Why is life so hard?" Our pastor says, sometimes, he doesn't know. But what he does know is that when we worry, when we question, you just have to look to God that much more. You have to trust that He knows things you don't know. He knows the plan for your life, even if you don't. And it's not your job to understand, it's your job to prepare for rain. Plan your life so that when His plan is ready, it can work. And sometimes that means trusting, having faith, and just waiting to see. Here are some great quotes I heard in the sermon that literally changed the way I look at things:
Don't demand to understand.
Just because it doesn't make sense doesn't mean it doesn't make sense.
Don't go around lighting your own fires to see. Trust God in the dark.
God knows what's best for your life.
Do you have worry? Are there things you just need to trust God about? I know I do. Let me know if I can pray for you today.