Sharing My Jennarocity

This is one of my favorite worship songs for many reasons, but I'm not sure I really understood what this song actually felt like to live it out until now. The song is "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United." Here are the lyrics: You call me out upon the waters The great unknown where feet may fail And there I find You in the mystery In oceans deep My faith will stand And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand Will be my guide Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me You've never failed and You won't start now So I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine And You are mine Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You wou

Six years ago, almost to the day, I posted about us moving into our dream house.  It was titled, "When You Are Least Expecting It."   I find it ironic, given the way all of this ended, as surprisingly as it began.  When Jason first left, I had three major fears: 1) Losing my marriage, 2) Losing my stepkids and 3) Losing my house.  My house is the last on that list of concerns. Of those three things, I've kept the one thing that mattered most, which is knowing I will always be in my stepkids' lives. While I didn't have much control how all of this played out, I was able to negotiate in our decree that when I got rid of the house would be my decision on my terms. I've been paying for it alone since February and the Lord saw fit to take care of me financially until I was ready to emotionally give it up. The last few months, I've been really thinking about the house and working through my emotions about it. Every week, I get more and more aggr

The last few weeks have been interesting, to say the least.  July was the first month that we had our new "custody arrangement" in place. According to possession orders in Texas, the father receives the entire month of July with the exception of one weekend of the mom's choosing. I was very nervous going into this month because I knew it was going to be very hard on Avery. Avery is very much a momma's girl and I knew that neither she nor I could go the entire month and not see each other.  I was very happy that we were able to work out arrangements where she could go back and forth between us for the month. She would stay with me a couple days then him a couple of days.  Again, I can't say enough how excited I am to have the job I do where I am able to make this arrangement work. I think it really helped her and gave her a sense of ownership in where she wanted to spend her time.  July 20th was the day my divorce was final. I really didn't kno