Saturday, April 24, 2010

Changing

So, this week, I have been reminded of a lesson I have learned several times in my life. There is one constant throughout life: change. Change will happen always and most of the time, you have no control over it. Some change is good, some change is bad, some change forces you to become a different person. Well, the lesson I learned is that while circumstances change constantly, we, as individuals, can change also. Did you know that you can change who you are, right now? I don't mean fundamentally. You will always some version of the same person. But you can change your choices, your mood, your outlook or even, how you are perceived. When I have been in a bad mood, I can change that bad mood into a good mood. I can change how I affect people around me. I can affect the outcome of my job. I can affect the relationships I have in my life. And when you get down to it, it all comes down to choice. Changing yourself starts with the choices you make. Do you want to have better relationships with your friends and change yourself to be a better friend? Maybe that change starts with the choice to call them more often. Do you want to change your job and get a promotion? Maybe that change starts with the choice to be more focused when you are at work. Do you want to change your relationship with your children? Maybe that change begins with a choice to play more, gripe less. The point here, is that as aggravating this can be, and as much as we sometimes want to blame our circumstances and problems on others, it is ultimately our job to make choices for ourselves so that we can grow into better people. What are you going to do to change your life today?


Monday, April 19, 2010

Not Me Mondays

1. It was NOT ME who was cranky the whole weekend. Then, in a matter of moments after being cranky, it was certainly not me who was almost brought to tears by the Celebrity Apprentice. (Seriously, Jenna!)

2. It was NOT ME who scarfed down a double cheeseburger, fries and apple pie from Burger King last night.

3. It was NOT ME who was so tired that I almost feel asleep in the shower this morning!

Oy vay.

Friday, April 16, 2010

First Pregnancy Update

I am really going to try hard not to be one of those people who only talks about being pregnant, but let's face it. When you get pregnant, your social life goes into the pooper. So there isn't much else to talk about. You don't feel like going out, especially not the first 12 weeks, and when you do feel like being social, it lasts for a mere moment because you are tired 10 minutes later. Plus, it stinks to be the only one that isn't able to have fun. I swear, my life has changed so much in the past 3 weeks, from the wedding and now this pregnancy. But, small sacrifices, right? So, this whole time, so far, has been pretty easy on me. I don't spend all day being sick, I don't really crave anything weird and I have been eating relatively well. But this week, morning sickness set in. I don't feel nauseated most of the time, but then all of the sudden, I have "the urge" and have to rush immediately into the bathroom. I count my blessings because it could be a lot worse, but I am glad I am starting to have some symptoms, just to make sure the little peanut is still in there. It's like, I just heard the heartbeat last Friday, but already I am like, are you SURE there is something in there? Sometimes I will forget and then go, oh yeah, there is a BODY inside of me, WEIRD!!!!

So far, here is how my eating habits have changed:

1) NO MORE CAFFEINE. Although, if I am incredibly tired, I will allow myself one cup of coffee. I am allowed one per day but I am sticking with two per week, if I need it.

2) Diet Ginger Ale and Diet Dr. Pepper, caffeine free, are my new best friends. If I do start to feel funny in the tummy, they help me calm down.

3) I have cut back on my sugar intake, somewhat. I really do not eat cookies or ice cream unless I really want it, which lately, hasn't really been that much. I try to stick with healthy snacks as much as possible.

4) The only craving I have really had has been for Chick Fil A. During the day at work, it's all I can think about. I am NOT a fast food eater, mainly because I am a cheapskate, but hey. The baby wants what the baby wants.

5) I still eat cereal, but I am TRYING to eat healthy cereal. I love cereal and I am very glad this hasn't been something that has grossed me out.

6) I used to love popcorn and now I can't stand it. The smell, the taste, it sickens me. Poor Jason doesn't eat it as much as he would like. Sorry hubby!

So, that's pretty much our lives at this point! We have the kids this weekend and boy, we are so excited. I don't write a whole lot about our personal challenges with custody and visitation because it makes me angry, but these last 6 weeks have been really hard on Jason. The only weekend they have spent with us has been the weekend of the wedding, and we barely spent any time with them. See, when she has the kids for Spring Break, which she did, she gets them the weekend before and the weekend after, so there is one weekend we didn't get. Just from that, and the way the weekends feel this time, we get to see the kids every Thursday till 8. Imagine how that would make you feel, to only see your children once a week for a few hours. It's heartbreaking. He takes it like a champ, but boy, it really hurts him. She isn't too giving, so when Jason asks for more time, she basically tells him if he has a problem with a decree, take it up with the lawyer. He may not have been the best husband, but he is a dang good dad and really doesn't deserve that. Unfortunately, changing decrees takes money, which we don't have. If I ever have a change, I am going to petition to change the laws in our state for non-custodial parents, especially good dads who are trying to do the right thing because the current system is terrible. Well, anyway, have a great weekend!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Our new addition!!!

Well, apparently God didn't think 2010 was a big enough year for us, what with me turning 30 and Jason and I getting married. He decided we needed to throw a baby in just for good measure! Jason and I found out that we are expecting November 27th! After the initial shock wore off that we have only been married a couple of weeks, we are both incredibly excited to welcome our new little peanut! We went to the doctor on Friday, heard the heartbeat (which was amazing) and got some blood work done (which all came back perfect!). So now, we are just waiting! I am feeling very good, considering small bouts of nausea, but nothing compared to horror stories I have heard. I am just ready to find out if it's a boy or a girl!

I am trying to upload the sonogram picture, but it isn't working out too well...I will keep everyone posted on updates to come!!! What a blessing!!


Monday, April 5, 2010

Wedding Pics







Isn't my stepdaughter the most beautiful thing you've ever seen?



I am so glad she got this shot. She is GREAT at finding little shots like this.





Sophia makes this picture beautiful.


Ah, the guys. Jordan lost two front teeth this week so he did NOT want to smile!



Love love love it!





I would get married again JUST to get this picture. This is one of the most favorite pictures I have ever had.





























Wedding Pics

My Mom

I wrote about my wedding a few days ago but I really wanted to write about my mom separately, even though if it wasn't for her, my wedding might not have even happened, nor been as beautiful as it was.

My mother is a very special person. She has such an eye for decorating. She can make a piece of paper look like a work of art, a table looked like a museum masterpiece, and a house at Christmas like a Winter Wonderland. I wish I had even 25% of her talent in that area. When I told my mom my colors would be black, white and pink, she made sure everything from that point forward matched. This includes both showers and my bachelorette party. She found tablecloths, flowers, the MOST beautiful cake. I don't even know where she finds these things, but she did. So Mother, thank you for making my wedding so beautiful!

Not only is she a wonderful decorator, but she thinks of things most people would never even think of. For example, for one of my gifts at a shower was thank you cards and stamps. Not only were these thank you cards pretty, but she also got me a "W" stamp in silver to add a little touch of personalization. She thinks of the little things, which honestly, I do not think too much of. Mother, thank you for thinking of the little things when all I was thinking of were the big things!

My mom is not only a great decorator and a thoughtful person, but she also makes sure we don't have to do alot during an already stressful event of getting married. She does the work, she puts in the effort. She was working hard for so long for my wedding because she knew I didn't know where to even begin. Mother, thank you for working so hard to make my wedding day beautiful!

Mom, I know I am not always a great daughter, I know I am not always the most thoughtful or the best at timing; I know I don't always know the right things to do or say, but I do know how much I love and appreciate you. I know how much I appreciate what you've done these last few months. I know how lucky I am to have a mother like you and how lucky I am to have a mother who loves me this much.

I love you Mom. More than you will ever know.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

March 27, 2010 - The Day That Changed My Life Forever

My wedding weekend was interesting, to say the least!

I took off Friday and we went up to the facility to decorate with the all the girls in my family, my sisters, mom, and aunt and mother in law and sister in law. Reagan also stopped by to help! The facility looked really amazing – my mom was the decorator extraordinare and did such a great job of making everything look great. My colors were black, white and pink. We had white tulips everywhere, the cake was black and white, and of course, my mom had plates and table settings and linens from the many, many events she has helped with or hosted over the years. It was finally coming together!

That evening, I spent the night with my parents. One last evening with them before the big day. It was just a blur of activity, with me not really being able to focus on any one thing. I was nervous about the next day. I wanted to get through it all and just get to the reception! I have never really been an excited “bride to be.” You know me, let’s get through the boring stuff so we can party!

That morning, we woke up and headed over to the courthouse. On our way, we had a bit of frustration – a wreck on I-35 on my wedding day! Excuse me? I thought I faxed over a “no traffic” clause to the city of Lewisville. We ended up getting there and we weren’t late, so that was a good thing. I got my hair done, my makeup done, and before I knew it, it was time to go.

Even though I had never dreamt of being a bride, I had fantasized a lot about what my future husband was going to look like and what kind of man he’d be. When I was a girl, I thought about that moment quite a bit. The funny part was that I had put Jason in that dream many times before, and now, he was to be the one that would fill that role forever. It felt as if that was the way it was always to be.

The time had come to walk down the aisle. As I stood with my dad, waiting for the music to start, he said, “Jenna Pecor – I wanted to be the last person to ever call you by that name.” Ok, I was fine until he said that. Luckily, I held it together and started walking down the aisle. For some reason at Brooke’s wedding, I was a blubbering mess walking to the alter, but at my own wedding, I was cool, calm and collected. I just remember doing my very best to smile! I saw Jason, and I could see he was holding back tears. He didn’t smile as I walked toward him, he just had this look on his face of happiness, as if he couldn’t take his eyes off of me. When I got there, he grabbed my hands and didn’t let go, nor did his eyes break from mine. It was perfect. The ceremony took 17 minutes and there I was, Mrs. Jason Whitehead! I felt happiness and relief – I was glad this was finally over, and without any major incidences to speak of. Now, onto the reception!

The reception was understated. It was in the afternoon in Mckinney, which was about an hour away for most of my guests to travel. Although not everyone stayed the whole time, we were able to dance to the end and then it was off to the bed and breakfast to finally relax! We were so tired but glad for this phase of our life to be over.

Jason, I love you so very much and cannot wait for us to begin the next part of our journey together!