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My God, You Are My God

It's December 13th, that means 12 days to Christmas! I told myself I would blog about that this year. So, this week has been a hard one for me. I have been feeling very stressed, depressed, and my self-esteem hasn't been so great. I look in the mirror and don't like what I see, and it's not necessarily the weight. It's how I have kept myself up. My priorities have been a little skewed over the last few months, Jason and I both know that, and it has really done a number on me this week. There is one main component that's been missing from my life: God. I haven't been spending time with Him, in His word. It's funny how, over time, if you do not find time for God, your view of yourself goes right out the window and things in your life start to unravel. I am missing His presence, and I think that is what all of this is about. Therefore, on the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me...

God and His Word. "Open the eyes of my heard, Lord. Open the eyes of my heart, I want to see You. I want to see You."

In this time of blessings of my life, there is no time or reason for depression. There are so many other things of importance that others are battling through, my problems are not nearly enough to cause such anguish. But they are my feelings, and the only One who can help me work through them is Jesus.

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

I pray that God will work in my heart and help me to feel the blessings of His love.
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Brittany said…
You just keep your eyes on Jesus, Jenna and don't let Satan steal your joy for the season or around your wedding!
December 13, 2009 at 12:49 PM
Nikki McCallum said…
Jenna, you know that I can relate to you on this more than most. The mirror is not my friend either for many reasons. I'm not one to quote scripture or hand out holy blessings, but I know what I believe in my heart.

Veering off the visual path that others expect does not change your beliefs, just how others choose to blindly percieve you.

Whether it is right or wrong is not what is important. The important thing is to embrace situations with confidence and find hope in the amazing possibilites of what may come through dedication and determination.

"The greatest thing is to love and be loved in return."
December 13, 2009 at 3:57 PM
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