I have never felt so helpless as a parent. I know it's so silly, but my poor baby felt her first real pain today and there was very little I could do about it.
She just couldn't poop. Since we started solid foods, her poop has gotten harder and less frequent, but today, she tried and tried and could get nothing out. She screamed and cried, every time we stood her up, she would try to poop, turning her face bright red, tears coming down her face, and she would shake. I felt so, so bad for her. I looked online about what I could do, so I gave her a warm bath, a tummy massage, moved her legs around and gave her some prune baby food. After a few hours, she finally got something out. It was as hard as a rock. Some time later, she pooped again, then again. Finally, the last time, it was much looser and she didn't cry but one little wimper and I think that was only because her little bottom hurt.
I was almost in tears, every time I stood her up, and watched her in so much pain. I knew it was good to make her poop because the longer she didn't, it would be harder for her to go. So I would make her try, then hold her and get her relaxed to try again. It broke my heart. Poor thing.
It is time. I have put this off long enough. This weekend, I was so upset when I was trying clothes on. I just felt so, wrong. So wrong to be as big as I am. I am not all that big, considering. But I am not comfortable, at all. It's time to lose this weight. Here is my before. Stay tuned for my after.
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