Ever since I got engaged, I have been so excited but yesterday, I started having this feeling of it sinking in. I think the older you are when you get engaged, and the longer you go in your life as a single adult, it becomes strange that your life is now about two people instead of just one. It sounds weird, but I almost feel like I am in mourning for my single life. I got so comfortable doing things on my own that at times, I kind of miss it. As soon as I became comfortable with being single and who I was as an independant woman, I found Jason, which is how it should be. Single Jenna deserves a second of mourning, I think. I worked hard to be her and I am proud of who I finally became. I am sure that no one would ever write this on their blog a week after getting engaged, and to some it may seem like I am not happy with my life and the changes going on in it. But please don't think that. I am very happy. My life is just going into a new phase and I wanted to stop for a second and think about what I will miss and properly say goodbye. So, the top 5 things I will miss about being single are:
1) Doing whatever I want with my money. I could be completely selfish with anything I made. If I had $20 left before payday, I didn't have to explain to anyone why it's more important to spend that money on junk food and a movie or Jason's Deli. I just did and the only person that even had to know is myself! When I budget, I only had to think about my needs, not the needs of someone else. I didn't have to share my bad financial choices, nor does anyone else have to suffer from them.
2) Going to the grocery store and buying whatever I want. I didn't have to think of anyone else or plan ahead for meals. I just spent a very small amount of money on the things I liked. If I want to eat cereal every night for a week, sandwiches all weekend and ice cream for lunch, I could do it.
3) Having alone time any time I needed/wanted it. If I wanted to come home and spend the entire weekend in front of the TV, I could do it. If I wanted to go the movies by myself, I could do it and not feel guilty. Along with that, I never felt like during that time I had to clean, do laundry, shower (yuck) or anything else I didn't want to do. I just took time when I needed it without having to explain myself.
4) Keeping my apartment however I wanted. I am a messy person and sometimes I feel like my apartment being messy is just who I am. When you are alone, if the dishes aren't done, you are the only one who has to live with it. If the clothes aren't put away, who cares! You are the only one that sees it.
5) Going out with single girl friends and not knowing what the night will bring. Let's just leave it at that.
Don't worry...I look forward to my life with Jason. And being single wasn't always fun. But Single Jenna, this one was for you.
1) Doing whatever I want with my money. I could be completely selfish with anything I made. If I had $20 left before payday, I didn't have to explain to anyone why it's more important to spend that money on junk food and a movie or Jason's Deli. I just did and the only person that even had to know is myself! When I budget, I only had to think about my needs, not the needs of someone else. I didn't have to share my bad financial choices, nor does anyone else have to suffer from them.
2) Going to the grocery store and buying whatever I want. I didn't have to think of anyone else or plan ahead for meals. I just spent a very small amount of money on the things I liked. If I want to eat cereal every night for a week, sandwiches all weekend and ice cream for lunch, I could do it.
3) Having alone time any time I needed/wanted it. If I wanted to come home and spend the entire weekend in front of the TV, I could do it. If I wanted to go the movies by myself, I could do it and not feel guilty. Along with that, I never felt like during that time I had to clean, do laundry, shower (yuck) or anything else I didn't want to do. I just took time when I needed it without having to explain myself.
4) Keeping my apartment however I wanted. I am a messy person and sometimes I feel like my apartment being messy is just who I am. When you are alone, if the dishes aren't done, you are the only one who has to live with it. If the clothes aren't put away, who cares! You are the only one that sees it.
5) Going out with single girl friends and not knowing what the night will bring. Let's just leave it at that.
Don't worry...I look forward to my life with Jason. And being single wasn't always fun. But Single Jenna, this one was for you.
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